Thursday, March 30, 2006
sis and i before we headed down to pool..i've got bunny teeth..- .-
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Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Next week is a hectic one.I've got lit rehearsals for Macbeth this thurs,next tues and thurs till late evening..choir's on monday and friday.Having two tests on monday,d and t and higher chinese.Geog will be on tues and maths at the later part of the week..I shot the teachers an incredulous look when i first receive the news..
grhhh..i will give my best..i don't want to appear vulnerable to others.
just completed longman,science..
My shoulders ache from all the books that weigh me down..
=[..and..and..i've got lots of them to bring back this weekend..my muscles are weak man..
I learnt that Life is more than just making through the day..more than what we think we know,what we own and what we belong to.
Life goes on and it must go on.(i hate this saying)
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Failures and Success are bedfellows, so I am ready to fail.
I need motivation..
through quotes,through friends,through encouragements..
most of all..myself!
I can't possibly always depend on others to drive me beyond limits..
I need the sea to give me an oasis of calm..
[waiting there] 11:38:00 PM
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
i still got lots of work to complete.
off to rush them..most probably can't sleep early tonight.
shit.
it's sweet...
to see fathers treat their daughters like princesses and wives like queens.
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Sunday, March 26, 2006
Next year..we are gonna be stream into classes of our choice..I'm still..er..unsure of my goals..I wanted to try combination A (a triple science class )provided that i will be able to drop to elective sciences if my marks are able to hit the range..I'm afraid i couldn't cope and now..i don't even think my results are satisfactory...not to me..(not really)
I wanted to..er..take SS and history for my humanities..but sis says that history require much more memorisation as compared to geog! =(( grhhhh..this is bad..and it is not available in combination A..I don't mind combination B(double sciences) but i won't get the chance to try bio.. i will see how it goes for the next 6 months of history lessons..
I know..i know..that if i manage to get into combination A and i'm able to make it..i should not give up halfway..but..look at me now..fancy having so much complaints about studies ever since primary school..how can i suvive..?I 'm really having doubts about myself..
I see him able to take only phy and econs in jc because he wanna be an engineer..thus,he don't need chem..
I see people able to get themselves enrolled in music schools after their secondary school education because they are sure of their goals.
I see students that are able to tackle studies and their passion as well as any other..
I see others able to choose.to make big decisions.to give up.and yet receive.they take risks..but worthwhile ones..
but..i just cannot acheive that..
i know that as a student,studies should be my priority.the subject of my life..but i want my teenage years to be fulfilled..contrasting..and memorable-the best times of my life.
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just came back from the pool not long ago..
managed to hit 30 laps.(and it's only 1.5km!)i initially thought it was 100m a lap..but..sighs..
I did alternate breaststrokes and freestyles..it made swimming much more easier.
so much refreshing after a swim..=) love it.
had a heavy dinner with family..thirty laps are redundant now..?=(
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Thursday, March 23, 2006
I almost fainted during morning assembly today..Again..
grrr.I 'm not really worried about my health but i think i really need health supplements and vitamins..=(
Anyway..I took an one-hour nap..please..please don't say that i'm a pig or i'm lazy.I take naps to 'borrow time from the future'.Meaning that i do work till late hours.I really cannot complete my work well when i'm listless..Most probably gonna read up the three chapters for science test later at 11plus.followed by some reading of books.listening to mp3 before i'm off to bed.hehs.
Now,I struggle to push away unhappy thoughts..Just give my best in everything i do.. yeah?I wanna be one who's able to walk at my own pace.And still able to get everything perfectly done..
Special thanks to a few (one of two)special people who motivated me..who led me onto the 'right' track man..hugs.I may not say but i'm really grateful deep down in my heart..you may not know but you are definitely greatly cherished by me.
ahhhhh..really feel like going back to the bball court..do some light dribbling and shooting..really looking forward to a day where shih,jess and me can have conference again..the day when the courage people will go back to kcp?or visit ian and faith..all the longings and misses always have to wait..and they are always short-termed..
that's the way it is.
I've learn to accept it(from him) rather than complaint.
Never ever want diminutive figures to affect me..not anymore..=)
[waiting there] 7:23:00 PM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Threw up in school yesterday after feeling nauseous for the whole morning..looked really pale and legs went wobbly after i threw up..they just tremble whenever i take the stairs or walk at a faster pace.
I wonder whether it is indigestion or..?
Today was IT day and so I did assignments online, at home.A day for me to recuperate..hopefully.
[waiting there] 9:40:00 AM
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Was feeling really sick for the past two days..
had a high fever that reached 39.0..
keep feeling like throwing up..
one of my worst experiences of getting sick..and this seem like the second or third time i'm having a fever this year? =X this is the worst experience man!
i'm much better now..
I like Dr Tan..he is really caring..asked me whether i had any cca pratices to attend this week so he can give me mc.. he asked about whether syf was this year of next year too..i was too sick that i forgotten all about it..he's really nice.
this one week holiday is making me stress..grrrrr..so much stuffs that i need to polish and complete..tough week..
want to be like some guys out there who can shut out distractions easily cause i can't.
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Monday, March 13, 2006
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the spiral staircase in the bungalow
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the straightest chicken wing?my creation!
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Last C division girl to get the collar pin..haha.
anyway..that's not important..
it's about finishing the race..
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went to tanah merah for choir chalet on sat and sun.
cycled and i crashed into another bike..!
the corner of my left eye hurts.
slight blue-black at the thumb.
guo hao,boon jun and jia jun they all are really cute and funny..
they have different ways of bbq-ing sausages ..
they can push and shout to snatch a box of KFC chicken..
yangkai can be a storyteller..!he told us about Final Destination 2..the death of a girl in the lift and it frightened me till i cried.But i had overcome the phobia in one night.miracle eh?this is unlike 'The Ring' which haunted me for years.
I'm still left with geography and skill practice 3G for holiday assignments..grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
[waiting there] 12:08:00 PM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
need a breakfree from those hectic weeks..
to push away my morbid thoughts.
music has always been my remedy..
i love music.
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the most painful expression is having no feelings.
[waiting there] 7:22:00 PM
Friday, March 03, 2006
thanks a lot to all..
and remember that I will always be there for you guys too.
It's not an empty promise..i would want friendships which both parties devote their time and comittment into..not..
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Went to watched I Not Stupid too with th whole of PHS yesterday.And the atmosphere was great.Tiptoes, and look over the sea of the familiar faces..and all are the whites and blues..wow.
Now i truly understands what uniform represents-Unity
try to picture the whole school during assembly or when you are performing on stage and you'll get the meaning.
Anyway,I have always been proud to be in my school uniform from nursery till now though i look nerdy..That's the look I won't mind to give strangers as I'm in sch u..Not after dressing up..maybe...some people look alright in sch u..hehs..i love my uniform anyway..
The movie's alright..Obviously,it activated waterworks.I love a small scene where Jerry drew his dad's shadow on the father's day card..and..when he finally got the chance to told his parents that no amount of money was able to buy one hour of their time..These details are the scenes which make me blinked back tears.His innocence somehow reflect his true feelings..It's the small scenes (which were meant to be funny) that captured my attention..
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This sentence etched in my memory..
'Sometimes,parents give us greater disappointments as compared to the disappointments we have given them...'
It immediately sent tears rolling down my cheeks.They are not what we think like not understanding..but ignorant of that reasoning..or they don't know the ways to love us..Heart-wrenching..They often overlook emotional needs and think physical needs are all that we needed..
Still,I can put myself in their shoes and i know it ain't easy..to be understanding..
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enjoyed the quality time we shared on the train with tianwei..=]
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Had banner course today.Fun and meaningful..i chose the banner which represent holiness and blessings.I already fell in love with the names..haha.Then we learn ways of waving the banners..some of my fav names..
simply worshipful
my jesus
rainbow
victory
power
wing
bride o'bride?i think so.
I admire ballerinas who can spun almost perfect pirouettes..
[waiting there] 11:28:00 PM
